My Lonely City

Yesterday was definately the most stressful day of my new career. I wrote my first contract, and there were a few issues that came up just as we were finishing, and dealing with those things was quite frustrating. And I had to ask for help, which was freely and graciously given, but we all have our faults and I think the one I’m working on right now is pride, so it was difficult admitting that I had very little understanding of what was going on and what I ought to do. The funny thing is, probably quite predictably, that now I feel so much more confident and capable of doing this, of being what I’ve set out to be, because I’ve dealt with a very difficult situation and it didn’t make me quit. And I know that there are people who will help me. After it all happened, I talked with my Team Leader (an angel, I now think) and she was so encouraging and helpful, as were the people to whom I had applied for help. And I talked with my Mom, and she (of course!) said all the right things. And (I know, this is so incredibly sappy – but get over it, this is my blog and I can say what I darn well please) now I feel like I can do it because these people whom I respect and trust are behind me. And last night I dreamed that I was a Realtor. That sounds weird, because of course I am, but I’ve never dreamed from that perspective before – my dreams are … well, that’s another entry. And something funny: on Bible Gateway (biblegateway.com) they have this Verse of the Day thing which I don’t usually pay much attention to (doing my own thing, you know) but today it’s from James 1:2-3, “Consider it pure joy, my brothers, when you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perserverance.”